30 | Thought of You Again

And so I thought of you again

wishing you were near again

I thought of you again

because your voice

was so true again

I thought of you again

and wished you were here

I wished you would hear

my silent tears

I cried this night for a lost friend

but deep inside I cried this night

for you my sweetest friend

 

I wish you had the time

to listen to my silent tears

wish you had the time

to spend with me

I wish I could cause a smile

to make you happy

I wish I could write a rainbow

‘cause when I see your face I truly know

you and I were once one

but not in this life time

it happened long ago

 

thunder shot through my body

lightning flashed and blinded me

winds blew apart what was left of me

and left me alone again

as I was before

running on empty

I wondered for a moment

how far a cadillac convertible would go

running on empty; top down

cruising an endless street

wondered for a moment

how far I would go running on empty

head down low

cruising an endless street

 

I took a walk down through my mind

and saw you standing there

next to a street lamp

your body shaking

in the freezing rain of my emotions

 

what was I to do?

wondering about you

wondering if you’d care

to stay a while

with me in my freezing rain

 

the closer I got to you

the further you ran away

was it something I didn’t do?

or was it something I had said?

what made you run the other way?

 

I never lied to you

never deceived you

I never hurt you

always spoke up for you

always defended you

 

I was there for you in certain ways

on certain days

when you weren’t there

I cared enough for you

as I had cared for others

but there are only a few

who have touched my life

who have touched my feelings

 

some could never

some would sever

but forever friends all remained

love and friendship

hands held tightly

never to separate

 

I want a friend in you

the best friend anyone could have

a lover

someone to laugh with

to cry with

someone to listen to

and talk with

someone to fill in the void

to alter this course of mine

 

I’m heading for a brick wall

but see you standing there

on the street corner

under a lamp

in the freezing rain of my emotions